i dunno what i was thinking leaving my child behind now i suffer the curse and now i am blind with all this anger guilt and sadness coming to haunt me forever i cant wait for the cliff at the end of the river is this revenge i am seeking or seeking someone to avange me stuck in my own paradox i wanna set myself free maybe i should chase and find before they will try to stop it it wont be long before i will become a puppet its been so long since i last have seen my son lost to this monster to the man behind the slaughter since you've been gone i have been singing this stupid song so i could ponder the sanity of your mother i wish i lived in the present with the gift of my past mistakes but the future keeps luring in like a pack of snakes your sweet little eyes your little smile is all i remember those fuzzy memories mess with my temper justification is killing me but killing isn't justified what happened to my son i am terrified it lingers in my mind and the thought keeps on getting bigger i am sorry my sweet baby i wish i've been there its been so long since i last have seen my son lost to this monster to the man behind the slaughter since you've been gone i've been singing this stupid song so i could ponder the sanity of your mother