Light trigger warning (talk about depression, but hang in there for some positivity and hope at the end) Sometimes I feel trapped by my own thoughts I'm feeling like I'm getting worse It's so hard to see yourself fall Because when you're normally the one catching There is noone there to catch you I get up in the morning Wishing that the day will be over soon The later it gets, the worse I get I can't enjoy the highs because I know there'll be a low I'm living my own curse Sitting in the quiet of my room With nobody around It feels like the walls are closing in around me But my defense is caving in Wanting to do it again But I swore to mom that I would never do it again Why can't my mind be mine? Everytime I'm getting worse I start wondering why And I start to cry But the tears don't bother me anymore I'm much more afraid of what's following them Me, feeling nothing at all Emptiness No tears also means no happiness I know the happy thoughts exist I just have to be patient for them to arrive I know, between black and white there is every shade of grey We can't choose to only see black and white We have to accept that there's things we can't change But that doesn't mean that we have to be unhappy with that Times can be hard and it can feel like it's never getting better Take a risk anyways, maybe two and see what you can do There is hope, take a chance, just believe in you It might not always turn out great, but at least you tried Just always remember, there's not only black and white. #thereishope #lovewins